Post by mmmmmbeer on Aug 24, 2013 19:26:16 GMT
I've pretty much been ADD all my life. I've a close friend I grew up with is now a specialist and diagnosis' ADD and the like in children. He's told me that now that he knows, I'm pretty much classic ADD and just learned to cope with it growing up. Not the fake ADD that's a catch all for bad parenting... but the real deal that like 20% of the diagnosed really has. I've always been a spaz, had impulse control problems, and had no personal bubble at all. He said he even wrote some papers about me in grad school. I've been self coping with it my whole life and ended up pretty successful.
I got into a ton of trouble in grade school and high school. I was constantly getting suspended, or detention for being a smart ass or being disruptive. I did however get decent grades and really didn't have a huge problem in colludge, gradjewating with a 3.30 and wasn't really big on buckling down.
I learned to settle down and relax a bit. I get along with everyone, but really don't enjoy people much.
So after colludge I got into law enforcement.... it worked out pretty well... I was always going a million miles an hour. There was always something new to do... someone to chase... something to get into. Then as an investigator... same thing... always something to get into.. as a dope agent... the thrill of the hunt... as well as undercover ops... kicking doors with an M-4... first in the door baby.
Then... going on almost a year and a half now I became the boss. All that changed and I'm now pretty much desk bound. While I've been doing fine learning the job... it's hoogly boring compared to the last 15 years. I went from 100 miles and hour to 10.... meh.
I've a ton of work but it's hard to stay focused on budgets, compact negotiations, and regulatory meetings. Projects come and go... but the regular mundane droll is really hard for me to keep maintained. I've shit for organizational skills. I've got like 15 half finished boring projects laying all over my messy desk. My mind races a thousand miles and hour and shiny things distract me.
So... after talking with my buddy and the missus... I decided to go in and talk to someone. After talking with the dude for about an hour, he's telling me he's pretty sure I have the ADD. He starts telling me about some meds... that will probably help me get focused. Not euphoric... not any different personality wise... just able to focus throughout the day.
I dunno... it was pretty hard for me.... felt like... I dunno failing? I've lived with it my whole life... but actually saying I might need a bit of help is really out of the norm for me.
Bah....
I got into a ton of trouble in grade school and high school. I was constantly getting suspended, or detention for being a smart ass or being disruptive. I did however get decent grades and really didn't have a huge problem in colludge, gradjewating with a 3.30 and wasn't really big on buckling down.
I learned to settle down and relax a bit. I get along with everyone, but really don't enjoy people much.
So after colludge I got into law enforcement.... it worked out pretty well... I was always going a million miles an hour. There was always something new to do... someone to chase... something to get into. Then as an investigator... same thing... always something to get into.. as a dope agent... the thrill of the hunt... as well as undercover ops... kicking doors with an M-4... first in the door baby.
Then... going on almost a year and a half now I became the boss. All that changed and I'm now pretty much desk bound. While I've been doing fine learning the job... it's hoogly boring compared to the last 15 years. I went from 100 miles and hour to 10.... meh.
I've a ton of work but it's hard to stay focused on budgets, compact negotiations, and regulatory meetings. Projects come and go... but the regular mundane droll is really hard for me to keep maintained. I've shit for organizational skills. I've got like 15 half finished boring projects laying all over my messy desk. My mind races a thousand miles and hour and shiny things distract me.
So... after talking with my buddy and the missus... I decided to go in and talk to someone. After talking with the dude for about an hour, he's telling me he's pretty sure I have the ADD. He starts telling me about some meds... that will probably help me get focused. Not euphoric... not any different personality wise... just able to focus throughout the day.
I dunno... it was pretty hard for me.... felt like... I dunno failing? I've lived with it my whole life... but actually saying I might need a bit of help is really out of the norm for me.
Bah....