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Post by shotsup on Nov 17, 2015 10:12:33 GMT
That board is so dead, its like getting kicked out of kmart. I am not going back. I promise that. I am here to die. alone? maybe. probably I call BS
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Post by edjr on Nov 17, 2015 13:40:13 GMT
I am not going back. I promise that. I am here to die. alone? maybe. probably I call BS You should call your mom after what I did do her last night
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posty
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Post by posty on Nov 17, 2015 19:26:43 GMT
Did do?
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Post by edjr on Nov 17, 2015 19:58:29 GMT
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Post by bipolarbear on Nov 18, 2015 16:06:47 GMT
I am not going back. I promise that. I am here to die. alone? maybe. probably Haha! Got this in writing before it possibly disappears! And don't worry, you're not alone. I'll hold your hand here. We need to change the name of this place to something like "The Bored of the Damned". Recovering Geekaholics? I could very easily never post at the Geek Flub again. MDC seemed to have melted down. Maybe it is hard for him to give up alcohol during the week. Then again he may have just done a thread and never tried to quit. Who knows.
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Post by edjr on Nov 18, 2015 16:10:41 GMT
Haha! Got this in writing before it possibly disappears! And don't worry, you're not alone. I'll hold your hand here. We need to change the name of this place to something like "The Bored of the Damned". Recovering Geekaholics? I could very easily never post at the Geek Flub again. MDC seemed to have melted down. Maybe it is hard for him to give up alcohol during the week. Then again he may have just done a thread and never tried to quit. Who knows. Fuck Mike and fuck his shitbag lowrent messageboard
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Post by Artista/CN on Nov 18, 2015 16:11:09 GMT
Haha! Got this in writing before it possibly disappears! And don't worry, you're not alone. I'll hold your hand here. We need to change the name of this place to something like "The Bored of the Damned". Recovering Geekaholics? I could very easily never post at the Geek Flub again. MDC seemed to have melted down. Maybe it is hard for him to give up alcohol during the week. Then again he may have just done a thread and never tried to quit. Who knows. Honestly, I do check out fft. I've been a member for over 12 years now. But I don't post because nothing appeals to me. I'm sure folks over there think JK ran me off but no, he didn't. What I have to share is best suited on fbg where you get some appreciation for insightful posts, here of course with my journey thread, and the cancer sites I'm a member of. I get much pleasure out of providing helpful and useful info to folks. FFT doesn't seem to care much about that looking at the threads. FBG does. That's why I don't have the desire to post on FFT. Not because anyone ran me off because no one has..
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Post by edjr on Nov 18, 2015 16:18:12 GMT
We need to change the name of this place to something like "The Bored of the Damned". Recovering Geekaholics? I could very easily never post at the Geek Flub again. MDC seemed to have melted down. Maybe it is hard for him to give up alcohol during the week. Then again he may have just done a thread and never tried to quit. Who knows. Honestly, I do check out fft. I've been a member for over 12 years now. But I don't post because nothing appeals to me. I'm sure folks over there think JK ran me off but no, he didn't. What I have to share is best suited on fbg where you get some appreciation for insightful posts, here of course with my journey thread, and the cancer sites I'm a member of. I get much pleasure out of providing helpful and useful info to folks. FFT doesn't seem to care much about that looking at the threads. FBG does. That's why I don't have the desire to post on FFT. Not because anyone ran me off because no one has.. :mexican:
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Post by Artista/CN on Nov 18, 2015 16:50:55 GMT
I left out twitter and facebook as daily sites, though I don't talk about my cancer on those since fam doesn't know..
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Post by edjr on Nov 18, 2015 16:56:42 GMT
I left out twitter and facebook as daily sites, though I don't talk about my cancer on those since fam doesn't know.. your family doesn't know? because you love them and don't want to burden them or you're just a miserable wench?
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Post by Artista/CN on Nov 18, 2015 17:01:45 GMT
I left out twitter and facebook as daily sites, though I don't talk about my cancer on those since fam doesn't know.. your family doesn't know? because you love them and don't want to burden them or you're just a miserable wench? Because I don't want to burden them. They are high anxieties who fret if I have a cold. I love them too much to cause a heart attack or mental breakdown, esp my dad who loves me more than anything and is always sending me I hope all is well messages. If I am stage IV then I'll have to figure out when to reveal. That's tricky because you don't know how much time you have. But for sure I won't at the beginning. It'll be a play it by test result as I go through this journey of mine. ETA: If you're interested in where this stage III (which I am for sure) vs stage IV comes from, check out page 50 in my journey thread. I've posted links to my test results from my online chart and where I got the coding messages from to confirm what my onc told me.
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Post by Artista/CN on Nov 18, 2015 17:12:36 GMT
This is how selfish I am. If my dad knew, everything and much more would paid for. I'm not working right now and so it's a big strain on my dwindling savings. My dad's health is much more important to me than money that he would give me which he's a very generous man. Right now I get monthly checks even though I keep saying I'm fine, cuz I don't work. He's very stressed about my so called anxiety issues that prevents me from looking let alone if he knew the truth. I hope I never have to tell them, that I'm stage III and go in remission with no recurrences.
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Post by edjr on Nov 18, 2015 18:18:04 GMT
This is how selfish I am. If my dad knew, everything and much more would paid for. I'm not working right now and so it's a big strain on my dwindling savings. My dad's health is much more important to me than money that he would give me which he's a very generous man. Right now I get monthly checks even though I keep saying I'm fine, cuz I don't work. He's very stressed about my so called anxiety issues that prevents me from looking let alone if he knew the truth. I hope I never have to tell them, that I'm stage III and go in remission with no recurrences. That's rough.
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Post by Artista/CN on Nov 18, 2015 18:28:39 GMT
This is how selfish I am. If my dad knew, everything and much more would paid for. I'm not working right now and so it's a big strain on my dwindling savings. My dad's health is much more important to me than money that he would give me which he's a very generous man. Right now I get monthly checks even though I keep saying I'm fine, cuz I don't work. He's very stressed about my so called anxiety issues that prevents me from looking let alone if he knew the truth. I hope I never have to tell them, that I'm stage III and go in remission with no recurrences. That's rough. I had to tell my bro though since he's in charge of my medical decisions and living will should anything go wrong. Having gone through his intense emotional breakdown helped seal my decision about mom and dad and the others, which he knows is the right thing to do unless I am stage IV. He was struggling with leaving the parents out but I convinced him it's for the best. He knows how they are too. But man I feel bad for him. I didn't want to tell him either but was convinced I should because he is in charge of my affairs. Since I'm not seeing any fam, he has to sneak up from LA to see me. He's been up once after my sx 8/6 for 6 days but is a teacher so it's not easy to get away. Plus he sees my dad a lot, almost every weekend (he lives in Irvine, mom in Seattle so easy to hide), and dad has tabs on his whereabouts. Christmas mom and bro are here for 2 weeks staying with fam in Palo Alto. He's not sure he can slip 1/2 hour over to see me for then mom would say why not me too. Will be interesting. Going to have to play the anxiety is getting worse card to keep fam away this year. Sucks. I'm not a big holiday person in general but T-Giving and Xmas time alone will suck, especially hearing the fam are going to Vegas for a few days at Xmas time! Ah! I LOVE Vegas!
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Post by edjr on Nov 18, 2015 18:43:28 GMT
I don't know what to say. I had been avoiding this thread for selfish reasons (not wanting to be sad) but here I am.
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